Encouraging Myself!

Within the past two weeks, I received, on top of the !!! news indicated in my last blog, “Be Not Dismay, But You Better Take Heed,” another doctor’s report that wasn’t too favorable. This time ’round, I was experiencing shortness of breath, especially when climbing the stairs. It would take about 3 to 5 minutes to catch my breath and to become composed again. One would think that I just finished running a relay of some sorts had they seen how much I was panting. And for that reason, I was led to see my primary doctor.

Dr. C immediately ordered blood work and an X-ray for my chest. The blood work was STAT and when it had arrived, Dr. C ordered another urgent procedure, a CT scan. I suspected that it had to be serious. But prior to the CT, I had to undergo another blood drawing which left unsightly bruises on top of my left hand and within the cup of my right arm. In the meantime, I’m trying to stay as calm as I can be, in addition to being inquisitive. While sitting in the lab being prepped, I asked the technician if the blood drawing was for hypertension or diabetes. She said that she couldn’t divulge that information, but if I kept guessing then… She finally asked me what was my purpose of being there. And I told her that I was having shortness of breath. She stated that that called for a CBC or complete blood count test. If I saw my expression in the mirror, it would be one with a puzzled look. That’s before I knew what CBC meant. Then she stated that there was a possibility that I may have a blood clot(s) in my lungs. Why didn’t my doctor share that with me, I thought! Ughhh!

Sometimes we have a dog’s life day…

Well, after the news of the “possibility” report, I went ahead to get the X-ray. Time passed and Dr. C received the results of the blood work. It came back positive. By this time I was emotionally and physically drained. It was a little after 5p.m. and I had been there ever since 2:10p.m., the time of my unscheduled appointment. Mind you, I had been “water” fasting only, and that day was day 7. Dr. C, with great concern and during the wait finally shared with me that it was possible that I “might” have a blood clot on my lungs and I needed the CT scan. Me and my trivial self responded, “I have other errands to do.” “Well, this is more important, that has to wait,” he firmly stated. Can you imagine my nonchalant audacity? Chuckling. Subsequently, the CT scan indicated positive for something. That something turned out to be nodules and scar tissue—in my lungs. But there were emphatically, no blood clots! Can I tell ya, I’ve a great doctor. He showed a sign of relief that there were no clots.

Out of all that transpired, I decided that I wouldn’t allow myself to hang on the ropes of despair and disappointment. So I took a David stance and said to myself, “self, why am I discouraged? Why is my heart so sad? I will put my hope in God! I will praise Him again—my Savior and my God!” Psalm 43:5 Can I tell ya, the rest of my evening into the days ahead were filled with silence and praise! What?! some may say. That sounds like an oxymoron, an antithesis. No, it wasn’t. But, I can truly say that I have peace. And even if there were clots, I wasn’t worried because I know that I will eventually see Jesus. I’ve no fear in death!! There were days of meditation and silence. And other days like today, I was singing His praises.

Prayer:
Gracious God, Heavenly Father,

Thank you for Your faithfulness, mercies and grace. Thank You Great Physician for the readers of this blog. I pray for the one who is right now in pain, suffering, have heartache and or is disappointed. I thank You Lord that what they’re facing right this moment is only a test of faith and commitment in their relationship with You. I pray that they will be met with a “David stance,” dance like David danced, and shake the dust off’f their feet knowing that by Jesus stripes’, they are HEALED! I pray a Psalm 43:5 breakthrough over their situation, thoughts, and body in Jesus’ name, Amen. I declare and decree Holy Ghost Power and plead the blood over their attitude. I pray that they’ll, by faith step into their God-ordained authority and rejoice in their situation, with victory; and as a victor, not a victim. This I believe in the Wonderful, All Loving name of Jesus, the Christ, Amen and Amen.

Finally dear bloggers…whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things. Philippians 4:8

(Ready for Oven) Red, Yellow, Green and Orange Peppers

Instead of drowning in misery along with dispirited thoughts, I fixed a colorful pepper dish. Just thinking on things that are lovely and of good report.

~Yah©bahne
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